01-28-2025, 03:54 PM
Man, I totally get where you're coming from. It can be super frustrating when you're in that cycle of wanting to let go and experience pleasure, but the nerves and fear just keep taking over. I’ve been there too. I remember a time when I was really caught up in making sure everything went “right” that I couldn’t just enjoy the moment. But like you, I eventually realized that sometimes, you just have to let go of that control and trust your body to do its thing.
That moment where you said you felt "blurry" and lost track of what was happening? That sounds a lot like the start of an orgasmic experience. It’s not uncommon for people to feel disoriented when they finally let themselves go in that way. When the pleasure builds up like that, it can kind of overwhelm your senses. Your body might go into a sort of "overload" mode, which can make you lose track of time or space for a moment.
I don’t think you should be too hard on yourself for not being sure if it was an orgasm or not. Sometimes it’s hard to pinpoint exactly when it happens, especially when you’re just starting to really tune into your own pleasure. The fact that you were able to relax and let things unfold is a huge step forward though. That’s exactly what most people are aiming for when they’re working on experiencing orgasms more fully.
It’s definitely worth exploring further, and I’d say don’t be afraid to keep trying different things that help you feel more comfortable with your body and pleasure. Whether it’s through a vibrator, more time with your boyfriend, or even just more solo sessions, every experience can help you better understand what works for you. You're closer than you think.
That moment where you said you felt "blurry" and lost track of what was happening? That sounds a lot like the start of an orgasmic experience. It’s not uncommon for people to feel disoriented when they finally let themselves go in that way. When the pleasure builds up like that, it can kind of overwhelm your senses. Your body might go into a sort of "overload" mode, which can make you lose track of time or space for a moment.
I don’t think you should be too hard on yourself for not being sure if it was an orgasm or not. Sometimes it’s hard to pinpoint exactly when it happens, especially when you’re just starting to really tune into your own pleasure. The fact that you were able to relax and let things unfold is a huge step forward though. That’s exactly what most people are aiming for when they’re working on experiencing orgasms more fully.
It’s definitely worth exploring further, and I’d say don’t be afraid to keep trying different things that help you feel more comfortable with your body and pleasure. Whether it’s through a vibrator, more time with your boyfriend, or even just more solo sessions, every experience can help you better understand what works for you. You're closer than you think.