And if I did, I don’t remember!
I’m honestly not sure what happened. It’s hard to explain. My boyfriend and I have been trying—well, kind of trying—for a long time to help me have an orgasm. But every time it started to feel good, I’d get so nervous and scared that I’d stop him. I’d end up focusing more on letting him get off instead of letting myself enjoy the moment. It’s been a frustrating cycle, and I’ve always felt like I was holding myself back.
Well, tonight, I decided I wasn’t going to let my nerves or fear get in the way anymore. I told myself to just let it happen, if it could. No more stopping or overthinking—just to go with the flow and see where it took me. So, we pulled out an old vibrator we hadn’t used in a while, and we gave it a shot.
He started fingering me while I used the vibrator to rub my clit. Normally, the moment things start to feel good, I’d panic and stop him or stop myself. But tonight, I didn’t stop. I made a conscious effort to relax, lay back, and let myself enjoy it. As the sensations built, it started to feel really, really good. Like, incredibly good. For the first time, I felt like I was finally letting myself experience pleasure without overthinking it or letting my fear take over.
Then, things got... strange. It felt so good that I don’t really remember what happened next. It’s like I blacked out or passed out for a moment. Suddenly, everything was blurry, and it took me a few seconds to remember where I was and what was going on. I was so caught off guard by the whole thing that I asked him to stop, and I stopped too.
I have no idea what happened! Did I have an orgasm? Was I so overwhelmed by the sensations that my body just checked out for a second? I’ve never experienced anything like that before, and I’m honestly really confused.
What do you guys think? Has this ever happened to anyone else? I feel like I’m so close to understanding what my body is capable of, but this experience has left me with more questions than answers. Any advice or insights would mean a lot.
I’m honestly not sure what happened. It’s hard to explain. My boyfriend and I have been trying—well, kind of trying—for a long time to help me have an orgasm. But every time it started to feel good, I’d get so nervous and scared that I’d stop him. I’d end up focusing more on letting him get off instead of letting myself enjoy the moment. It’s been a frustrating cycle, and I’ve always felt like I was holding myself back.
Well, tonight, I decided I wasn’t going to let my nerves or fear get in the way anymore. I told myself to just let it happen, if it could. No more stopping or overthinking—just to go with the flow and see where it took me. So, we pulled out an old vibrator we hadn’t used in a while, and we gave it a shot.
He started fingering me while I used the vibrator to rub my clit. Normally, the moment things start to feel good, I’d panic and stop him or stop myself. But tonight, I didn’t stop. I made a conscious effort to relax, lay back, and let myself enjoy it. As the sensations built, it started to feel really, really good. Like, incredibly good. For the first time, I felt like I was finally letting myself experience pleasure without overthinking it or letting my fear take over.
Then, things got... strange. It felt so good that I don’t really remember what happened next. It’s like I blacked out or passed out for a moment. Suddenly, everything was blurry, and it took me a few seconds to remember where I was and what was going on. I was so caught off guard by the whole thing that I asked him to stop, and I stopped too.
I have no idea what happened! Did I have an orgasm? Was I so overwhelmed by the sensations that my body just checked out for a second? I’ve never experienced anything like that before, and I’m honestly really confused.
What do you guys think? Has this ever happened to anyone else? I feel like I’m so close to understanding what my body is capable of, but this experience has left me with more questions than answers. Any advice or insights would mean a lot.