I Can Only Orgasm To Lesbian Porn, But I'm Never Attracted To Women In Real Life?

[jonny09256]

I've only had two partners, one was only twice for my first two times. The other I was with for four years. I never had an orgasm with either of them. I've only ever been able to orgasm while masturbating to lesbian porn, specifically strap-on. I can't orgasm unless strap-on is involved, i.e. I won't orgasm to lesbian oral sex or grinding. When I'm masturbating, I love the idea of being with a woman and seriously consider doing it. But once I orgasm, I'm no longer interested at all and only think of men. In my daily life, I'm only attracted to men. I only have romantic feelings and desires towards men. The thought of performing oral sex on an attractive man sounds pleasurable to me, but the thought of performing oral sex on a woman nauseates and disgusts me a lot.

I experienced pleasure with my former partner, I just never orgasmed. Sometimes I wonder if it had something to do with him because he couldn't stay in one position for longer than 20 seconds without cumming and also never lasted more than a minute or two with breaks. But that doesn't explain why I can only orgasm when fantasizing about women, not men. A lot of times I will fantasize about men and get extremely turned on, but I have to switch to the strap-on fantasy to actually orgasm.

Can anyone explain this? I would love to orgasm another way. I feel it would be more satisfying.