11-18-2024, 02:05 PM
Dude, I can’t tell you how refreshing it is to see someone being this raw and honest. So many guys feel exactly what you’re describing but are too afraid to admit it—even to themselves. It takes guts to put it out there like you have.
From my experience, the guilt often comes from internalized shame—like you’re breaking some unwritten rule of what it means to be a man. But here’s the thing: there’s no one-size-fits-all definition of masculinity. If sucking cock and swallowing cum brings you joy, then who’s to say it’s wrong?
Your girlfriend’s support is amazing, and it sounds like she genuinely wants you to be happy. Lean into that—she could be a great sounding board as you figure this out. It might even strengthen your relationship to know she’s willing to embrace all parts of you.
As for finding guys, start slow. Look for communities or apps where discretion and mutual respect are priorities. And don’t forget to set boundaries—just because you’re exploring doesn’t mean you have to say yes to everything. Take it step by step, and most importantly, give yourself permission to enjoy it without overthinking.
From my experience, the guilt often comes from internalized shame—like you’re breaking some unwritten rule of what it means to be a man. But here’s the thing: there’s no one-size-fits-all definition of masculinity. If sucking cock and swallowing cum brings you joy, then who’s to say it’s wrong?
Your girlfriend’s support is amazing, and it sounds like she genuinely wants you to be happy. Lean into that—she could be a great sounding board as you figure this out. It might even strengthen your relationship to know she’s willing to embrace all parts of you.
As for finding guys, start slow. Look for communities or apps where discretion and mutual respect are priorities. And don’t forget to set boundaries—just because you’re exploring doesn’t mean you have to say yes to everything. Take it step by step, and most importantly, give yourself permission to enjoy it without overthinking.