i think i might have had my first orgasm

[daniel74]

And if I did, I don’t remember!

I’m honestly not sure what happened. It’s hard to explain. My boyfriend and I have been trying—well, kind of trying—for a long time to help me have an orgasm. But every time it started to feel good, I’d get so nervous and scared that I’d stop him. I’d end up focusing more on letting him get off instead of letting myself enjoy the moment. It’s been a frustrating cycle, and I’ve always felt like I was holding myself back.

Well, tonight, I decided I wasn’t going to let my nerves or fear get in the way anymore. I told myself to just let it happen, if it could. No more stopping or overthinking—just to go with the flow and see where it took me. So, we pulled out an old vibrator we hadn’t used in a while, and we gave it a shot.

He started fingering me while I used the vibrator to rub my clit. Normally, the moment things start to feel good, I’d panic and stop him or stop myself. But tonight, I didn’t stop. I made a conscious effort to relax, lay back, and let myself enjoy it. As the sensations built, it started to feel really, really good. Like, incredibly good. For the first time, I felt like I was finally letting myself experience pleasure without overthinking it or letting my fear take over.

Then, things got... strange. It felt so good that I don’t really remember what happened next. It’s like I blacked out or passed out for a moment. Suddenly, everything was blurry, and it took me a few seconds to remember where I was and what was going on. I was so caught off guard by the whole thing that I asked him to stop, and I stopped too.

I have no idea what happened! Did I have an orgasm? Was I so overwhelmed by the sensations that my body just checked out for a second? I’ve never experienced anything like that before, and I’m honestly really confused.

What do you guys think? Has this ever happened to anyone else? I feel like I’m so close to understanding what my body is capable of, but this experience has left me with more questions than answers. Any advice or insights would mean a lot.

[hanar123]

Man, I totally get where you're coming from. It can be super frustrating when you're in that cycle of wanting to let go and experience pleasure, but the nerves and fear just keep taking over. I’ve been there too. I remember a time when I was really caught up in making sure everything went “right” that I couldn’t just enjoy the moment. But like you, I eventually realized that sometimes, you just have to let go of that control and trust your body to do its thing.

That moment where you said you felt "blurry" and lost track of what was happening? That sounds a lot like the start of an orgasmic experience. It’s not uncommon for people to feel disoriented when they finally let themselves go in that way. When the pleasure builds up like that, it can kind of overwhelm your senses. Your body might go into a sort of "overload" mode, which can make you lose track of time or space for a moment.

I don’t think you should be too hard on yourself for not being sure if it was an orgasm or not. Sometimes it’s hard to pinpoint exactly when it happens, especially when you’re just starting to really tune into your own pleasure. The fact that you were able to relax and let things unfold is a huge step forward though. That’s exactly what most people are aiming for when they’re working on experiencing orgasms more fully.

It’s definitely worth exploring further, and I’d say don’t be afraid to keep trying different things that help you feel more comfortable with your body and pleasure. Whether it’s through a vibrator, more time with your boyfriend, or even just more solo sessions, every experience can help you better understand what works for you. You're closer than you think.

[amravat123]

First off, I think it’s great that you’ve been able to push past the nerves and fears a bit. It’s really tough to break out of that cycle of overthinking and just letting yourself feel pleasure. For me, it took a long time to even get close to what you’re describing, where I could actually enjoy the moment without getting in my head. So, you're definitely on the right path.

The "blurry" feeling you described sounds a lot like what happens when people reach the point of orgasm or intense pleasure. Sometimes, it’s not always a loud or obvious climax, but more of a sudden shift where your body is just overwhelmed with sensation. It’s kind of like your brain just short-circuits for a moment, which is a totally normal reaction. It doesn’t always have to be that big, dramatic moment we see in movies. The fact that you felt such intense pleasure is a solid sign that you’re heading in the right direction.

The confusion you feel afterward is also something I think a lot of people experience. It’s not always clear if what happened was an orgasm or if your body just reacted in a way you hadn’t anticipated. That’s okay, though. It’s all part of getting to know your body better. The more you explore, the clearer it will get.

I’d recommend just keeping that same attitude you had that night—go with the flow and try not to pressure yourself too much about whether it was an orgasm or not. It’s all about feeling out what works for you. The key is to enjoy the ride, not just focus on the destination.

[antonio123]

Hey there, thanks for sharing your experience. I totally understand the confusion you're feeling, as it can be tough to figure out what’s going on with your body, especially when it’s something new. Sometimes, it takes a few tries to really figure out what works. I’ve had my own moments where I wasn’t sure if what I felt was a true orgasm or just my body reacting to something new.

You mentioned feeling like you "blacked out" for a moment, and I’ve heard people describe something similar. It can be kind of like your mind goes blank because the sensations are so intense, and it takes a second for your brain to catch up with what’s happening. That’s pretty common when someone experiences pleasure to that degree. When everything feels that good, it can almost feel like time stops for a bit. It’s not necessarily a bad thing; it’s just your body processing something powerful.

Honestly, it sounds like you’re very close to fully experiencing an orgasm, especially since you were able to relax and let yourself enjoy the moment without holding back. The more you can let go of the fear and nerves, the more likely you’ll have those clear, intense moments of pleasure. Your body has the capacity for it, and it’s just a matter of building trust in yourself and your partner.

If I were you, I’d just keep experimenting with what feels good, without any pressure to “get it right.” It’s all about enjoying the sensations and being in the moment, not about getting an exact outcome every time. You’re definitely on the right track!

[piciossa]

Hey, I can really relate to your story. It’s frustrating when you’re trying to have an orgasm but just can’t seem to get over that mental block. For me, it took a long time before I could actually let go and let my body feel pleasure without overthinking it. The fact that you were able to just relax and not stop yourself during that session is a huge win.

That feeling of being "blurry" or out of it when the sensations become too much? Yeah, that’s a sign that your body is reaching a peak. It can be overwhelming, and it doesn’t always look the way we expect it to. Some people experience a sort of dissociation when they’re at the height of pleasure, which can feel almost like blacking out. So, it’s possible you did experience something close to an orgasm, even if you weren’t fully conscious of it at the time.

You’re definitely not alone in being confused about what’s going on with your body. Sometimes, orgasms can feel different than we expect, and that’s part of the journey of understanding yourself. What’s most important is that you’ve started to trust your body more and take away the fear that was holding you back. That alone is a huge step.

As you continue to explore, just try to keep up with that relaxed mindset. Don’t get too bogged down in trying to define the experience. Just keep focusing on what feels good, and your body will tell you when you’re getting closer to what you’re hoping for.

[deigo123]

Hey, I just wanted to say you’re not alone in feeling uncertain about whether you had an orgasm or not. Honestly, I’ve had experiences where I wasn’t sure if I was just really close or if I had actually crossed that threshold. It’s a tricky thing to figure out, especially when you’re still learning to connect with your body and let go of those mental barriers.

It sounds like what happened to you was a really good step forward. The way you describe the feeling of getting “overwhelmed” with pleasure is actually pretty typical when your body is about to reach climax. It might not have been the most intense orgasm you’ve ever had, but it could have been the beginning of learning how to experience that depth of pleasure. Sometimes the first few times are a little disorienting, and that’s okay.

The important thing here is that you allowed yourself to enjoy the experience without shutting it down. That’s what most people struggle with the most—learning how to stay present and not let anxiety take over. So, I’d say you’re definitely moving in the right direction. It’s all about exploring and not putting too much pressure on any one session.

Don’t be afraid to continue experimenting with different techniques or even talking to your boyfriend more openly about what you both want. The more you can work together and communicate, the more you’ll be able to build on these experiences and get closer to fully understanding what your body is capable of.